Sunday, January 25, 2015
She's moving away.
Not after all the time, effort, and attention that I have spent.
Trying to help you break out of your shell.
Trying to help you fit in.
Trying to help you read.
Trying to help you succeed.
Where will you go? Will they care? Will they know how I tried.....how we all tried to help you?
A seed has been planted, but now the winds blow and take you away with them.
On your next journey may you go........
What happens when it seems all of your effort, time, and attention to a student's needs seems to disappear as quickly as a puddle of water on a hot day?
This is how I felt when "Susie" moved away. All year I had tried to help her, emotionally and academically. All year many of us had tried to help her fit in and come out of the shy shell she was in with hopes of helping her gain confidence, strengthen friendships, and smile more. I had even chosen her as my student to work with on an intensive basis during my Master's Degree work which meant we spent even more time together talking, reading, and working on the skills I thought would help her become a better reader and more confident student. All of the relationships, extra work, interventions, and plans for the next year were suddenly put to a halt.
She was moving away.
Far, far away.
And it made me sad.
Was I sad for her, or for me? Probably both. Even after years have passed, I still wonder about "Susie" and what she is doing now. Has she grown? Does she love her new school? Have her teachers taken her under her wing -- helped her, hugged her, and allowed her to find herself? Does she remember me? Does she remember any of us that took the time to care so much?
Even if I had known earlier that "Susie's" move at the end of the year would leave me feeling that all of the time, effort, and attention was disappearing along with her, I would have still tried.
Because I care.
And I believe that you have to.....
......and know that what you do matters.
You never know what the next day may bring.